… Make sure it’s enough."

That was a Dos Equis billboard and its amazing and I think should hit you hard, and least it does for me.

photo credit: pato_garza

 

So it’s been pretty much a month since I last wrote a blog. man I’ve been so busy. But that’s kind of a lie because I’m sure i could of really found the time to write it. I think its because staring at a computer for work really sucks out the joy I get out of a computer, whether that’s building a website, doing some photoshop, or getting some writing done. Even writing that isn’t for fun but for other projects that I seriously need to get done suffers. maybe I should just suck it up and just do it. grow up and do stuff I don’t feel like doing but gotta do.

While thinking about this stuff it dawned on me.

I’m not really the type to do one thing indefinitely to forever. Not only do I think that that would hurt my retirement, it also makes me contemplate about how I would define my existence. If I don’t keep my efforts to something for my life then what is said of me when I’m gone?

I wrote a poem about it awhile ago. It was kinda about it. Like dreams about what a person can be using words to be different things through the words themselves.

photo credit: MShades

And then I think about acting. Its something I know I’d enjoy it as I enjoyed the times I did some acting. I also think it would fake me out. That I’d do one thing that involves doing something different every time.

I dunno but I figure I need to start doing the things I love and start picking up on the stuff I love but haven’t visited in a while. And I know for sure that I need to put away the things I used to love but feel so sick of doing because I’ve done it for so long.

But I’m pretty nostalgic and ending chapters, while a part of my M.O., always breaks my heart.